its nice to know you care

I miss you, I love you, I always will love you. You are the one. You are the one. YOU ARE THE ONE. THIS I WRITE THAT SOMEDAY YOU AND I MIGHT LOOK BACK AND KNOW I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG.

1 Jan 2010 - 6 July 2011.

I DONT WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO HURTS ME CONSTANTLY, MAYBE NOT HURT ME BUT I DONT WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO KNOWS IM HURTING AND CAN BE DISTRACTED EASILY BY WHAT HE WANTS TO DO, BE IT SHITTING OR SLEEPING. I CANNOT BE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT UNDERSTANDS WHAT HURTS ME. I CANNOT BE WITH SOMEONE WHO CANNOT WANT TO MAKE THE EFFORT WHEN HE KNOWS IM HURTING. I CANNOT BE WITH SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO BE SELFISH EVEN WHEN WE ARE BOTH HURTING.

WITH ALL THAT,
IM NOT SUPPOSE TO BE SOMEONE WHO YOU COME AND TALK AND SEE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT. AND YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO ME OR NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY TO ME.

You are not as nice as you are. You are not as patient. You no longer want to go the extra mile. You've become petty ignorant calculative and to the extent of being mean to me. You no longer see it as an effortless and easy thing to take care of me. And I can only think that that's because you no longer love me as much as before and the love you have for me is not enough. And the worst part is you either can't admit it, don't even realise it or can't be bothered to do anything about it.